Give in, Give up OR Give it all I got

#abetterversionofme2018

I'll be honest – at this moment, as I am writing this post, I am feeling physically, emotionally and mentally drained.

Over the last few weeks, I've had days when I've struggled to eat, nights when I've struggled to sleep and several moments when I've just wanted to break down crying.

When I agreed to sign up for my very first Crossfit competition (well, actually, competitionS - with an S) a few months ago, I had no idea what I was getting myself into.

I knew I had some things to work on in order to get ready, but I totally underestimated the amount of time and work I'd truly have to put in.

After registering for the competition, I initially chose to work with a weightlifting coach for 5 weeks to focus on more technical aspects of my Olympic lifts. Of course, while I was on vacation in Canada, spending 2 hours at the gym 6 days a week was totally reasonable.

Since returning to Vietnam however, training has been propelled to a whole new level. I've been spending anywhere between 2 and 4 hours a day at the gym, approximately 5 days a week. That of course is on top of working long days at school, coaching U11 girls soccer, putting in a few shifts coaching /assisting at the gym and trying to commit to a bit of running and soccer every so often.

Day after day, week after week, I am being pushed to new heights. My sleep, my diet, my focus, my emotions, my mindset, my body...EVERYTHING is being tested.

Do I feel a difference? Absolutely! Is it all worth it? I'm not sure yet…

I often question why I put myself through all the "torture", but in some weird way, I guess I kind of like it. I could give in and I could give up, but...that's just not who I am. My competitive nature won’t let me stop...not yet anyways!

In the heat of the moment, I may say I hate the workouts (or even my coaches hahaha), but the truth is, I'm so grateful for the time and energy everyone has put in to helping me improve and prepare for the competition. I know I would not be where I am today without them.

Crossfit Q7 coaches - District 7, Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam

So, in 7 days, I, along with two fellow coaches, will be heading out to Thailand to take part in the 2018 Bangkok Throwdown and at this point, I’m just ready to give it all I got!

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